♥ mia.noob@hotfemale.com

i'm gonna make use of this time to reflect and to gain back my confidence.

make use of this time to bring all those positive vibes to me back and be who i used to be.

i will definitely, be the ultimate winner.

win.

i am always in this situation where i would get myself killed when i do a certain something.

okay. perhaps killed is not a proper word to describe it.

murdered.

it just suck that when i do that, i would get to know something that really hurts.

i know i can't do anything about it cos they are best fucking friends ever.

and even if i tried to break that, i would be the one to be blamed.

why? cos i'm just an outsider while they are worth "10 years of friendship".

this is what i called bullshit.

i bet she wouldn't know a certain truth or thing about you as much as i do.

i'm gonna keep myself strong and know that if shit happens, happens.

i will be strong to walk away from it and not look back.

i have fought strong enough in this war and deserve to know i have done my part, my best, and deserve to quit it knowing i have already won the war and if it means quitting for the best, it's for my best and your loss.

i don't know how to deal with this anymore cos it hurts. it sucks to know about it and oh wells, you both are "best friends" afterall.

go and love and marry him if you are capable of dealing with him.

i know for sure i can.

you can never find a woman like me khai.

trust me.

i love you.

i don't understand.

you are the one wanting things. i'm just trying to help to fulfill your dreams.

and this is what i get in return?

i may be an insecure, paranoid bitch, but at least i know what i'm doing.

it's okay if everyone around me turn against me cos i don't intend to win.

i will ensure i shut the fuck up.

karma bitch.

once a bitch, always a bitch. living up to the name. thank you very much.

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akan ku renang lautan yg berapi

membuktikan kehebatannya cinta ini

tetapi jikalau kau meninggalkan aku

terhiris hati ini terguris jiwa ini

menangis tak berlagu.

biarpun ombak yg merubah pantai

kasihku takkan hancur berderai

biarpun hari berganti hari

dirimu tetapku nanti.

kasih.....

hey hey.

it's my first post for 2012.

i shall start to blog again after so long.

this will keep me going and will be here and for me to keep  the good ol' memories. :)

it's been here thorughout my time since the day i first got together with my dearest.

and so here we are, after 3 years and 8 months.

happy happy 44th months baby. :)

fourrrrrr more months to our 4th anniversary and birthday!

yey!

i love you baby.

even it means letting you go for a moment to have you for a lifetime,

i would.

hatiku pilu, tetapi aku terpaksa melepaskan kau

untuk sementara supaya aku tidak akan kehilanganmu buat selamanya.

walaupun akan aku kehilanganmu buat selamanya selepas itu,

aku reda akan hakikat itu.

mangalir airmataku.

aku tabah menempuhi segalanya.

kerana kau, aku cintai.

selama-lamanya.

salam sayang,

aslamiah abdul halim.

i keep asking myself this question over and over again.

but i do not need to ask you cos i thought you would come up to me and tell me the reason why.

and this why question can never be answered cos you just cant seem to find the right words for me.

and this why question will forever be the one and only question that will hurt me till the very end.

love,

love.

i'm back.

it's been awhile.

it's been hell of a ride. but i still turn to you.

cos here, i feel at home.

:)

baby everything's gonna be alright.

please have faith in us.

faith.

i love you.